Inner thoughts

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I have A LOT going in in my head. A LOT. And I’m not saying everyone else doesn’t, cos I’m sure as hell they probably do too. BUT, I am saying, that compared to most, my head is a train that never stops at any stations, and the only way to slow it down remotely is to meditate. I’ve always been a pretty deep thinker. I can’t tell you the amount of times I’ve had friends say to me “Meaghan, I don’t think I’ve ever had a shallow conversation with you”. And I’m like, okay? Is that a compliment? Or am I exhausting you as much as I am exhausting myself? Because can I tell you, at 12am in the middle of the night, I wish it would stop. And so I write. I write it all down and it’s like there has been a weight lifted from my shoulders. Like I don’t have to carry around the world anymore. My brain can sleep.

So, dear reader, I thought that, despite the fact that you probably don’t give a damn about what is going on in my head, I’d write here. Because sometimes, I think I come up with some pretty cool ideas at 12am at night when every other normal person is fast asleep dreaming. So here it is. This is what goes on inside my head.

I can assure you, it’s not always deep. Sometimes it’s complete and utter rubbish. Sometimes, it’s like a toddler crawled out of the depths of hell and decided to run laps around my head with grubby fingers, leaving dirty fingerprints EVERYWHERE. And sometimes it’s this grumpy old lady who tells me that I shouldn’t do this, and I’m absolutely useless at that. But underneath all of that, I think I can come up with some semi-interesting topics. So if you’re willing to go with it, so am I.

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